Wednesday, August 29, 2007

..feelings.. thoughts.. and everything else..

Annoyed by down emotional feelings.
Turning full blast to 'Akon - Blame it on me' , soothes me.

Lots of feelings and thoughts this few days. Heavy and pressed.

This is a blog, hope it helps.



I'm not always as i am now, was different last time.

I'm quiet, uncomfortable around girls, does'nt dare to ask, that someone who always at that corner.

People change people, or events.

But still some past resemblance remains,

look me in the eye, you'll see.

i always come, and go by myself.

my life, drifting around, always been lucky, all falls right in place.

events and people, i tend to open up them one at time, lyk presents.


Live life daily, or at most, weekly.

life has been kind, with luck popping by saying hello. thanks my parent for that. espcially mom.

worried for my dirty school uniform even till now, worried if i be late to school, worried to call if i'm busy dating, worried if i eat enuf, even sneak in to check and tug me in at nite. thank you my mother.


After school, i guess its the next stage, werking life. exciting and scared.

thats gonna b another blog.


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a dejavu of my ITE life today at NAFA test. while watching;

Excited, enthusiatics faces..

Shy before turns..

That striving and strugling pull-ups, shuttle runs, SBJ..

cheatings and deceivings records..

my oh my.. ahakz..

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The beauty of humble. Have you reali felt it ? Its a mix of anonymous and sweet.

Thats how i describe it. Even i brag, its hard not to, but I earn it today.

If i write down, i'll spoil the humbleness, ask me sometimes alone.

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This song 'Akon - Blame it on me' , touches me.

" As life goes on

I’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility

I realize everything I do is affecting the people around me

So I want to take this time out and apologize for things I have done

And things that have not occurred yet

And the things they don’t want to take responsibility for "

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" Saw some fightings at skewl, encourage me more, i still wana bash pple "

- Me

Posted at 9:27 PM

Saturday, August 25, 2007

..the sun, the sand and the sea..

Beach day Saturday, had gone to Sentosa. Proceding there is a bore.. standing all the way in MRT, must treasure bike more.

At sentosa, SUNductive, SANDsation and SEApeachless!

Soccer! as always, tanning, fuhh..and mingling. Some peeps not from my class was there also, the girls! all in blouse! 'lyk got janji gitu '? hahah

We had some chats, nice ones, can't say much but i giggle inside while listening. Lucky some who supposed to come did came.. if not, on monday.. im gona tease 'em..

My head is blank rite now.. mood swing i guess.. maybe i'll just write some random junks below ya..

Words are sharper than knife
Pointier than needle
Hotter than lightsaber

So careful what u say, cause u may not meant it, but to others, tears are dripping down their heart. Used to bein bullied, i noe wat it felt.. Hey, all muscular now, wan me bully u ? hehehe..

Ignorance is bliss

I prefer dat. Not knowing something is often more comfortable than knowing it.. Ever called that special someone and find out that they not suppose to be there.. woowweee.. If i cud go bek time i'll smack myself in da head juz before calling, "stupid boy, dun call!' hehehe..


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Posted at 10:58 PM

Friday, August 24, 2007

...well.. thats life...

Had tests for this week.. wooweee.. more and more nearer to 2nd term. MME and CMO tests, amazingly did better for CMO, and thats the module i detest. i heard my name appear on the board, for not taking phase test ?! hm.. Dear Mr LeE.. Dear Mr hot pants wif classic straight moustache.. i already taken it.. and u gave it to me.. For the 23432511 times, already take ya.

Its been few months already, and i had such wonderful times with my admirable classmates. I had alot of nick names, cute names, call names.. here are the list below... some are spoken outloud , and some.. well... kept inside..

Ganyut - the infamous name.. haha.. my mom laugh when she heard it..
Deng Deng - ey ey, tink i food izit ? hmmm... but i am yummy sometimes ya..
Abg Din - this one, i cant carry, eeeeeeee, eish.. nvm i eeeee again...
Pervert - oh puhless, im innocent sey..
Handsome - i do heard this by the corner of my ear tips..
Budak jahat - well... hm... who eh...
Nur - hahah
Nurain - hahahahaha
Mat moto - aiyer.. i wish la.. if i am tat fierce..

That's all i could think of now, update more ya.. I'm sure they be coming thru my tag board.. hehe

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Something extra... Its not mine, but there is sense from this guy.

"The Grass Is Always Greener On The Other Side."

"" This doesn't only apply to those gals/guys that YOU dumped. applies also to those when even it is the other party who wanted the break up (aka you getting dumped haha), at first you would do everything to get him/her back.
But time heals and after some time, the feelings for him/her is no longer there, that is when you have officially "spit" it out, in most cases, it is usually a "one sided" break up, only one party wanted the break up.
i never believe in patching up. wanna patch up, then y break up in the first place? unless its a special case that both agree its better to breakup and its a sweet break up.
For bitter break ups... did they ever spare a thought for you when they wanted the break up? no, they only wanted THEIR way. Theres a chinese saying, loosely translated, it means: " A GOOD HORSE DOESN'T EAT THE GRASS HE/SHE HAS STEPPED ON" so screw them... get a life, and move on to greener pastures...dun be a sorry ass or a lifeless a******, and return to the same person who brought you
bitterness, tears, sadness... and the list goes on... Get a life! and may all of you find the girl/guy of your dreams! forget the past! give
others a chance - all the best to all in your love life! ""


Fuh.. some hot fire there.. i do agree to some of it.. but the shout out points from me..

"they only wanted THEIR way" - what to do , its human nature, pple want best for themself ,
what if loves fade? then let go, its cruel, either ur happiness or others.. your choice..

eeeehawwwwwwww! juz to ease the tension...

And here is something from me


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Posted at 8:48 PM

Monday, August 20, 2007

..wet wet wet..

----- Try reading it slowly.. I'm trying something..

- At the Gym -

There i was at the gym.. on a Sunday morning,
All alone.. disturbed by my classmate absent,
Felt abit weak and rigid,
But still.. i proceed.

Lifting.. carrying.. ignoring everything,
With only the mirrors.. my guide and company.

She was on the tower.. thru the glass i see..
Busy scouting.. from above.. shes working,
She turned.. and our eyes met.

My smile open wide.. hers was even wider,
Like a small kid i wave, and gesturing with each other..
i do swimming motion she does gym action,
We like on mountain tops.. but far across from each other.

Before i go.. i wanna get her number..
Imaginative and creative i am
Numbers thru fingers.. is all i could think off..

But shes too busy, attending the crowds..
and i too occupied, gazing the time..
Fiddling, folding my arms as i wait...
Cmon!, turn around lifeguard beauty..

I set my mind,
to left and go..
My oh my..
such a blow..
But you wait,
you lifeguard beauty..
Next Sunday 'ill come..
to finish this compo..


----- Back to normal mode...

Later noon, plan to watch bike show at East Coast Park, just me and my neighbour but because of the rain, we were stuck at few stops. We talk alot, doing some catching up. All the best on your TP

Waited and waited... but in the end, change destination and went to munch down at Al-Azahar. Had delicious mutton chop, yummy bebeh. My neightbour mata kero, hehe, order wrong dish. Went back, long way back, just enjoying riding and view. Its was cold.. even with sweater.

Quite a good day, as its been long since i have a foil plan day.. No frown for the day.

Sabby, thanks for the Cd, and i'm not returning.

Posted at 7:16 PM

Saturday, August 18, 2007

..wen ders fireworks..u forgot bout the last train!!..

Didn't go to school yesterday, it was raining, waited and waited till 8am, and still it rain.. So cold.. so cosy under blanket.. back to dreamland! Didn't do much the whole day except TV, internet and eating.

Surf around Youtube, stumble upon this classic song.. very classic.. erm.. ..... "Backstreet Boys - Thats the way i like it " ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WtyMUEDDKGg ).. Hey, don't giv me tat smirk! i did grew up in Backstreet boys Era.. n i'll bet you that u b able to sing to if not one but any to of their song rite ? erm.. anyone got this in mp3 ? can send me ? weeee

Later evening went out with peeps to watch the firewerks. Have some snacks from 7-11 while watching firewerks. Stunningly beautiful firewerks. Great goin to Esplanade.. beautiful buildings.. beautiful people.. beautiful scenery.. me also beautiful.. hehe.

Best part is when some of us miss the last train.. had to take cabs/night riders. This part actually exciting you see.. they panic.. worried bein home late/worried parents.. im not sadistic or what, its just that im past all this.. So i try to ease the worried-ness tension, locking my smile and being funny in lame way or izit i am lame but its funny ? haha.. i duno..

Yesterday was a whole lotta walking.. if ders a walking marathon i'll be 1st at finishing line! hehe.. From Cityhall to Marina (to eat) to Esplanade (firewerks) and to ............... Somerset, to take NR3. Wooweee~

To Nurul.. u r~ .. kindly wanted carry your bag, u say dun wan.. giv u water, sip abit oni den dun wan.. u tired wan sit down? dun wan oso.. disturb u ask again n again carry your bag.. still dun wan.. wat u wan.. can a rich famous look-a-like orlando bloom marry u ? never mind dun ans.. i knOE.. heheheh... But, im flabbergasted lah.. after 8 hours shift.. still went out watch firewerks.. walk like a mile.. carrying a buffy bag.. still.. when take off ur hat.. hair still very jambu lah.. ; )

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Posted at 11:58 AM

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

...its those period of time to bang our heads againts the wall...

Doing Mme past few days.. maybe just abit engross.. went home late on Mon and Tue doing it. Doing it too much till forget about my food consumptions.. i was sooo hungry.. soo weak.. next time i will eat.. always eat..

Today still at it.. Tomorrow i think its the date due.. maybe.. i duno..

Chill day for me today.. Classmates ask me how to do and stuff.. i don't mind actually.. Do help but can't resolve some. sorryyyy!.. Felt abit hopeless though.

Been feeling/acting weird.. starring at blank space.. emo-ing to songs alot.. Maybe its the exams, just around the corner.. Maybe assignments piling up.. Maybe Mr Lee moustache.. Maybe just maybe i don't want to write it here..
I always try to go with the flow.. but i prefer my lucky geeky cool self..

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Posted at 6:37 PM

Sunday, August 12, 2007

..time do travel fast..

Hit the gym in da morning.. wif a fren.. tryin to show him around the the new jurong sport complex.. but i get to the wrong floor.. paisey der.. haha. Weird thing morning was pack!.. At noon was less.. i tot pple r lazy to wake up early.. hmm..

Bump into another fren.. another gym enthusiast, Herwan. He, come gym run.. end gym run.. everything run.. wont b surprize he run from his home to the gym.. hehe. Did my legs n shoulders.. wooweee!.. hehe. Thought end der, but my fren persuade me swimming.. i got no extra shorts! i change from home! What to do??.. Rambo style! jus take off boxer.. hehe.

There's Sakura Restaurent at the swimming pool!!! Its great for family outing! But duno its open yet or not.

Swim just few laps.. to bored to swim alone as my fren oni wanted to sun tann.. and also my eyes was busy checking out chix.. hehe.. i join him sun tanning. Wow! the sun smiling down bright ya!.. hot hot hot.. sweet hot.. n calm too... i doze off awhile. We chatted, among guys, "guys-girls stuff" hekheke.. as in.. "facials/pimples/army/fitness/relationships/commitments"
hehehe...

Went back ard 5.. time do travel fast.. i reli didn't track time.. Fine day ya..Oni a minor flaw, i got summon.. $8 flown away!! haiz.. y did'nt i buy parking coupons, its only $6.. So the lazy/ego.. i deserved it.. nvm a lesson learn, i'll buy it...

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Posted at 10:43 PM

Saturday, August 11, 2007

..the wind thru my hair.. the adrenaline thru my vain..

What a great day today.. fix my bike near Sunshine mall.. bike all okeh bebeh.. wooweee.. luv u Fay Bay Bee.. i ride wif smiles peeking over my face.. But.. still ders more to do.. maybe some tuning for speed! hehe.huhu.muhaha.

What ? racer ? rempit ? no la... im a safe rider.. imagine bein on road the for a year, wif onli 50km/h limit max.. yup.. i am army driver! the power to sleep everywhere.. after driving tat is..
Army vehicle haf been implemented wif speed limit of 50km/h.. So.. used to other road users passing by.. enjoy driving slow.. enjoying the view.. enjoying the subtle breeze.. maybe now, jus abit boost of speed...

Once, i was in hurry to pick my fren up.. Listening to mp3, nodding along to beats.. i didn't notice this guy n the gf beside. Same bike, side by side.. When the light was green we both dash off.. Wow, cool, the guy was always ahead of me..n wif a pillion! turning to bends.. BUT.. when did i start racing wif this guy ?! i was in a hurry.. rushing.. haha.. quite funny i tell u.. best thing.. Both were goin the same road all the way to woodland.. but he oways ahead.. he even slip between big vehicles.. eish.. if accident, i pity the gerl...

I wan speed.. hehe.. dun get me wrong.. speed for overtaking vehicles.. being always ahead.. its better to b ahead den in between or behind..

Later in d evening, i played soccer.. wooweee... wif some uncles. Today was on form.. attack quite good, defended even better. Im comfortable wif defending. Had some rough contacts too.. win some.. lose some.. Even i accidently elbow my fren, haha, syiok sia, but sori ya! hahaha. Best thing, i scored bebeh... sweee lah!
Got some bruise here n der.. ouch.. but tats soccer.
And now im hungry.. must eat! hey! i did gain 1kg! yesh lah.. hulk to be ya.. hehe..

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Posted at 9:54 PM

Friday, August 10, 2007

..and then and then and then and then..

Blogging quite fun.. editing n stuff.. i tink mine is nice.. any comment ? nvm, keep to urself.. bluek, hehe. Getting lazy this few weeks.. n exams r ard the corner.. eish!.. Goin to gym haf been slacking too!! NNooooo! How am i to buff up! 65KG! and dats it!.. Actually goin gym is not the problem... eating consistantly is...

Need to eat more.. must! hmm.. must find a way....... Oh ya been to new sport complex J.Point area der.. its quite big.. gymers wud luv it.. even the swimming pool is big.. n haf shelter pools.. kewl lah..

Been more than a week without my bike.. my dear Fay.. *sob sob*... hectic without a bike.. my day are spent most on travelling.. Yesterday i test my bike around the carpark.. ... The wind thru my hair.. the perpendicular bends.. the up slopes... I cant describe how i miss it.. PLS PLS PLS Fay Bay Bee.. b back to ur old self.. Like flowers misses the sun.. Like grass misses the rain.. Like a baby misses the mother.. i miss u...

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Posted at 6:06 PM

Thursday, August 9, 2007

..celebrations.. angeration.. miscellaneousation..

Yesterday celebrations was ok.. I'm proud some of my classmates were involve.. Gd to see pple participating, doing wat they can do and impressing others..

When i watch them perform.. inside.. i do wanna perform.. don't you ? the urge ? ever felt it ? hm.. me performing ?.. hm.. wish i were a comedian.. or a comedian/host.. hehe.. i b god if i can do a stand up comedy.. wahhh....

Some performance r cute.. but ders this guy.. annoys me.. the attiude.. ish! i wana bash him up! Ever encounter a person u hate from the start just by their actions or attitude?
Im small size.. hes ard the same.. but he sure get one hell of a whopping from me.. Reli tat jabroni.. ill turn him sideways stuck a pole up his ass paint him red white n stars wave him ard for national day!!.. hehe...

After tat was MMe.. i lyk MMe.. soo fun.. but.. i lyk alot of things too... touching... touching ??!
someone commented me that.. hehehe.. no comment lah eh..

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Posted at 9:09 AM

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

..sweet honey strawberry.. wif everything ginger n spice..

Once again.. thx eh Sabby.. cute yet cool blog.. tapi kan (but)... why "...www.suchaperfect-denial.com.. ?? hmmmm.... Also seeeee the sidebar..
<========= fedora_girl ? she sounds furry... hehe.. Old stories, Older stories.. wah.. thx eh.. pincchhhh u ya.... Ahh yes, favorite things.. Soccer! Adrenaline pumping, courages i transform, and as if bless wif endurance to highly level.. After i stop playing n resting, theres blood gushing down my leg.. dun even remember wen i get it..

Lyks the net.. n computers.. as im in Info Tech...creating my own DIY CPU.. juz waiting for the money to grow on trees.. hehe... Listen to Rihanna - Shutup n Drive.. Wwoo! shes sexy.. and the song is sexy.. makes my sexy too.. can sumeone get me Sanitary napkins here!...

The world is vain!, n fuct up.. and also my mom says, no one is perfect in this world.. but my mom says im handsome.. weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

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Posted at 9:31 PM

why cant pple b abit more patience..

why oh why..

A few weeks back, i was at the ATM transferring pays for my werk colleague..

trying to b carefull not making any errors entering their accounts.. sumone tapp on my shoulder.. "Hey, how long? quick." as he looked at his watch.Not turning, just a glance from the corner of my eye, i nod and continue pressing..Not long.. Not even 2mins!.. the uncle blurt "hey hurry, what you doing"

I dont noe, my anger went berserk.. on the inside that is.. but i turn wif a stern look i said ''B Patience".. it look calm but he haf no idea hows inside..Finally, when im bout to finish the same voice.. "Cmon we waiting long".. .... .... inside me was red fury.. rediest of red.. even if red was alive, red would say, "Man..ur red!"

I press the last button, walk away.. as i pass the Uncle.. transform to ah beng mode shouted EVIL-ly " HaPi allReady! " look him dead straight but wif crooked smirk..

I was angry i tell u.. Cmon, sorry if im slow or something, but im trying carefully not to transfer to anonymous accounts.. why cant he b patient juz few mins more.. if naked women sitting inside ATM machine giving out the money.. i bet he would'nt mind waited 30 mins juz to peek.. no.. sorry.. 1hour he would wait..

Hm.. was i wrong? An uncle, mid 50s.. now as i writing this blog.. i smirk thinkin back.. hehehehe.. *giggles* uncle oh uncle.. i reli can cripple u wif 1 hand on u and the other using ATM machine...hehehe...

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'If you smellllllll... what the My mom is cooking~...

eh, nasi lemak la, ok bye go eat...'

Posted at 8:35 PM

...neva knew i wud haf a blog..

Posted at 11:26 AM

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