im feeling so Grief; anguish, heartache, woe, misery; sadness, melancholy. yup all that.
feeling so down, but, this moment now, its not about me, im gona use d opportunity to dedicate this 'manis' (sweet) song to all of you.
not just for those feeling miss someone, but also, those feeling down, alone at home, shattered, oppose, bored and want excitement, financial issue, waiting event/people, alone, anguish, lost at school/work.. i understand, and i share with you.. this is for everyone out there..
(the chorus)
bila rindu,terkenang mu siang terasa sayu
syahdunya jiwaku bila malam,makin kelam
jauh terbang diriku melayang
aku rindu, sentuhan mu ku terasa sayu
inginkan jiwamu selubungi ,jiwa ini, bawa ku dlm pelangi
melepasi segala hati ini..
(translation: abit off, but try to understand je la)
whenever feeling missed, daytime i thought of you, felt sorrow
how touched my heart feels, when night time comes, more vague it is
far away i drifted,
i do miss, your touch, makes me all melancholy
just want your presence, wrap around me, lets go across the rainbow
to let out whats being felt..
u may not feel it now, but maybe others are, maybe becoz of u.. so lets all appreciate this..
Lastly, to my bro
be the playa that you were..
be the rider that you are..
be the Amin that you am..
i look whole, but im half, coz you not whole..
we all waiting..
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:' / - cant even cry properly
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been schooling and werking, im tired. new modules r great, animation, superb lah! werkin, im part of d family, ahakz. but juggling both burns me out.
d other day, was riding to sch wif company, saw sumting that scares me. a bike fell off down d curb, rider n pillion, n the pillion is pregnant! SiiiaLLLaaaaa... and she screams!! i still remember her shrieks. tat trembles me. and d auntie who help, pawer la u, veri strong she push up d bike!
my heart felt lyk bein squeeze, and rip rite off out, drag on tar road and smash back in, that was thur. officially, i dun lyk surprises. i noe i haf no right what so ever, but feelings dun go away juz lyk dat..
thx eh teasing at me, but i noe u didnt mean anything.. its ok.
InSpire CLub cool la... make me smile, smirk and shy.. Juz came down, coz they persuade me.. and.... convince me i can wash me eyes.. oh well, wats new.. hahah...
i haf s secret !!!!!!!!!!!
my kawan turun my werk place. eat pizza oni! but thx accompany me doing delivery. mane dapat pizza hut escort dgn motard. cheybah.
met a new colleague today, face familiar lah sey. how cud i forget, one of d happiest day of my life, n ur there. yes i pass my TP on dat day, but she fail. now quit, LEERRRR... ur at d end, n ur quiting ? looks lyk ive got to do sum psychO-ing...
my pay! my pay!! heehawwww! ive plan out wat to buy... d rez goes to mummy...
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"lee kah seng is in my school! hahah
ME: (Tap at shoulder) Eh this guy owe me $1k!
Kah Seng: ... @_@(face so stoik, worth more than $1K)"
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My class IT2P. almost all new faces! only 6 IT1As including me! oh mannn. seems lyk ill go to bookworm mood now coz my class is quiet. advisor mr nelson sia.. if ders mr bean look alike contest, im sure he win. haha.
miss It1a. wanted to change class, but, deep inside, i noe im suppose to be here. a challenge for me. new path, new goals, new diamonds, new adventure.
still werking, hope wont clash wif my studies. d day im sick of pizza, im gona dance, for now, pizza pizzaa pizzzaaa pizzaaaaaaaa! muhahahha.
and today im late. even beat ERP, damnit shit!!!!! i slow down, wanting to stop by the sideroad to put cashcard, but traffic was zooming pass lyk rockets... n blardy taxi horns me. nahhbei.
wen i look at pictures, its a mix feeling, i felt sober, yet, i smirk.. its a sweet memory indeed.
did i saw lee kah seng in year 1? DID I!!?!?!?!? if tats lee kah seng.. kahkhahakhaka...ahhahahkahkahkhakhak....muahahha...
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"....ahkhakhahaha.. (still laughing) "
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My pay is LATE! Eagerly waiting.
This song is groovy, seems every song she pick is my taste too, thks Paula.
On Wed an accident happen right before my eyes, left me shaking.
On the way to work as usuall, exit PIE at Jalan Bahar, and a Subaru cut across me exiting same filter lane. Nice Subaru lah, sky blue. By the road shoulder, was lyk an accident, a police car and everything, didnt get to notice much. I juz had a quick glance.
As i turn back front, "BANG@!" That Subaru crash behind a lorry! Glass burst, scattered all over. I e-brake, swerve left avoiding that Subaru. Hope the driver was ok. As i pass the Subaru and lorry, seems that upfront theres another motorbike skidded n fell. The lorry brake stopping not trying running over the rider, but too bad for the Subaru. I think the Subaru driver also had a quick glance to the side lyk i did.
Left me shaking abit. Thrilling, haha, i luv it, but shaking. Haiz, bare always, i must keep eyes straight infront, its important!
Wed was my Dad birthday, bought u sumting from Pizzahut, hope u lyk it. Can stick it up on ur cabinet.
Work have been fineeee. The more i send, the shorter the route became.
After work yesterday, play soccer after work again. Singapore is small, every i go, always meet frenz. hahakz.
While playing it worked lah! i adapt wat i learn, might b a little sketchy though.
As i ride home, in the weee mornings, i look down at my Faye.
I lyk smirking at her, so does she.. Always noe wats on my mind.. Wait for me k.. Luvs..
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"Dun define others, ur onli defining urself - ZUL"
"I wake up every morning cryin, coz i haf to live wif this cute face everiday - HIDIR"
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Work Sat night. All d 'fun' peeps is der. Im always hungry, so manage to grab chickens, breads and potato's here n der... hehe.. Did ask the manager for Riders meal and busy dispatching orders..
Too hungry i ask the manager again..
Me : Jenny hungryyy,,
Jennny : eh i tot u guys make the big pizza already..
The crew did.. They keep two slice for the riders(only 2 didnt get).. BUT!.. it drop on d floor! n they throw it away!!!!! arghhhh.. hungryyy... nibble more breads..
Work ended 11.30pm, sum decided to play soccer. no sweat. Chills wif peeps, haf a nice chat. Ayie lyks sumone sey. Suppose to meet b4 2am, but i went home accompany by Ayie, to get change first.
Fajar(manager) frens was great. Not rowdy nor quiet and I lyk their girlfriends, sum wear 'tudung' but to go out in d weee hours in d morning, was unexpected, but hey, ders nothing wrong wif dat!
<>> every tuesday, ladies night, after 6pm, girls are welcome to play for free. Fico Sport Hub, located at Jurong. Boots or shoes, its freeeeee! Theres also dine-in pizzahut! my chillin werk place! <<>
I didnt score, crap! 2hrs, and even didnt hit d post. Reach home ard 5 bath and sleep.
Woke up and have to plan my game at Cashew, they buzzing my fon asking..
Normal as usuall, all came late, if they were on contract ill fined em!!.. But in d meantime, i fined them with "Bodo, ku igt ku yg lambat, aku datang dulu! " (i arrive 25 mins late)
Sumthing happen! i twisted my ankle, LOUD! "CRACK" They run to me asking as if i was alright... felt soooooo niceee lah... Thx guys.. Hey Hey, im VIP lah.. Very Idotic Person.. hehe
i sit for out for d game.. haiya.. i wan playyyyyy...
i learn sumting while watching, gona try it out nex game.
Went home.. watch Death Note.. nice.. 1st time watchin it. Waiting to sequeal.
Monday see gurls dance... weeeeeee...
Which guy doesnt.. hee.. wanted to join, but 1) cant dance 2) shy la beb.. chicken wing dance can ? Went home and sleeepppppppppppppppp... till now. Gona try dancing abit alone. Hmm... dun larf!
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" Working seems to giv my mind some peace "
" ..Ella se luce pa k la vea
eah eah eah, se menea se menea,
bailando te rodea.. "
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A change of environment needed.. an abrupt challenge.. or wicked incident..
I envy em, Hidirs jovial laughs, Budins ridiculous act.. Wheres my thang..
Driving thru the night just nudge me to wake up.
Did turn off the engine down the cemetery path, did it scare ya ? Boo yah!
I was really expecting to see the unexprected being..
Molly was great, bubbly and confident in her own way. And shes a replica of Budin.
Budin with camera, was professional... i wan the photos! Maybe just for kicks, i'll learn photography.
I adore Budin n Molly chemistry....
Your right Hidir, 4 years later maybe ?
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"Born to ride, born to drive, born to be a reckless road abuser.."
"..Wish theres less haters in this world.."
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Been to town yesterday.. Nicceee..
I lyk town, nice clothes to see, nice clothes on niceee people..hee
Spend my time wif Sabrina... Wei u, i dun bite.. harddd!.. She can b vunerablee at timesss... But rarely wen it comes, super sweet.. hope to see more.. N I luv that place, i reli do, u can see it in my eyes... Lets call it "Blue Star Milky Way".. Till nex tym kay.. and think outside d box for a minute.. ;)
And Linda, not all guys r jerk, but tat one is :)
My work today so blurry.. Didnt rest much, tired, but evening ive work.
Misplace my company bike key for a while, and a whole chain of bad events occur! Wrong change given! Knock on wrong door! Cheese drop on my shirt! Haiz.. But at d end of the day, it was all ok.
My result is out! Didnt maintain, but cool lah, coz im shocked to get that result.
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"..hm.. i hate 3rd partys.."
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